So… I am kind of disappointed in myself.

So… I am kind of disappointed in myself. I woke up this morning and my butt still hurt from pulling a muscle (see last blog) so I slept through bootcamp. I know slap my hand.

 

I went to Daily Burn tonight and I just didn’t do well at it… if that makes any sense to you. I felt like I could have given it more but just couldn’t muster up the energy. Everything seemed more difficult than it should have been. It just felt off to me. I think I left my body back on the couch at home because it just wasn’t into it. Hopefully tomorrow I can attack the daily burn and just beast mode through it. I will try and prepare myself better and get more water in and a few more calories in before the daily burn tomorrow.

A bright spot… When I was running the square and was doing the rope slams outside I kept watching all the people going into the Mexican restaurant, a really good Mexican restaurant. I use to be one of those people, eating myself stuffed with chips and salsa… but instead I was working out. YAY me, even if it wasn’t my best workout performance at least I was working out instead of pigging out. Every day I crave chips and salsa and any day I can beat the cravings I view as a win! And workout on that day double win! But just wish I could have performed better during that workout.

Well… Let’s be honest it was also that way with coke zero and chocolate. I use to drink a Coke Zero before I would even get in the shower in the morning. I would pop that pop tab and ahhhhhh those bubbles would just hit the spot. I would 2-4 Coke Zero’s a day. And it wouldn’t be uncommon for my “breakfast” to involve something with chocolate. We would have candy left over from conference and trade shows and yep I would have a few throughout the day. I would crave I mean crave chocolate and just a bite would make me so happy. Chocolate was never too much. I could eat chocolate on chocolate on chocolate dipped in chocolate. 

In the last few weeks I have given up soda! Huge accomplishment for me!!! OMG those headaches are something straight out of a scary movie! I even looked at caffeine patches like the nicotine patches smokers use. But I didn’t use them but they do exist. After I got through the headaches and withdraw from the caffeine I have been so scared to have even a drop of it and risk the chance of having to go through that painful process again. Chocolate is now out of the office and I have it on a rare occasion. I am good with the caffeine addition but chocolate still should not be in the house! Hopefully my chip and salsa and chocolate cravings will be broken soon :). 
Each day I workout and avoid my trigger foods I get a step closer to replacing those cravings for food with cravings for working out.