So... did you really just tag me in that photo?

Ugh!! I hate candid photos! Any candid photo of me I hate hate hate. When candid photos are posted on facebook I instantly am disgusted and un tag myself. Recently my trainer Mendy posted a candid photo of me and I was horrified. I need to come to terms with that is what I look like and turn that disgust into motivation. If I don’t like how I look in a photo I shouldn’t just untag myself thinking okay that will make it go away. I should come to terms with that is what I actually look like and if I don’t like it I should do something about it. I have become a pro at making myself look better in picture probably from years of training being in a sorority. One leg farther forward than the other, place hand and on smallest place of my hip, push butt back and chest forward, slight twist of torso, push neck out (to avoid multiple chins), and slight tilt to head and slight turn of face from camera so not to have full on face shot. A camera comes my way I instantly go into sorority pose mode. I need to come to turns with that my manipulation of the photo is not reality that a candid photo is the best form of reality. There is no instagram and no camera in our daily lives. Hat how I look in that candid is how I REALLY look in real life!

Yep that is me on the end. Squatting is not flattering! 



Positive encouragement from Mendy!

I have already used this photo as motivation. Last night I had a really tough work out at the Daily Burn class. It took an hour and a half and I so wanted to quit. We were all kinda complaining about how hard it was. I have heard people who run say that eventually you don’t feel the pain. I thought that seemed crazy and no way that was true. Last night we did so many chest and back exercise I was doing push up and honestly couldn’t feel my arms anymore. My body was going up and down and my arms didn’t burn anymore; I felt nothing. Thanks to Mendy I reached that place of no feeling. If on my own I would have definitely stopped when it hurt so bad I didn’t think I could do anymore. Mendy pushed me past that state and right into the infamous numb feeling. It is amazing knowing that it does exist and that if I push myself I can get there. Thank you Mendy!

The girls last night after all of our exercise(running, sprinting, jump roping, lawn mowers, chest fly, txr triceps and biceps, pushups, shoulder s, planks, and some other things I blocked out) the girls didn’t think it would be possible I would get up at 4:40am for the Bootcamp. My alarm went off this morning and I so thought of resetting it and going back to bed. Especially since it was in the 30’s and in a down pour! But I thought of that photo. I thought of the other girls who were getting up and making it in. So I put on my workout clothes and off to bootcamp I went. And despite my hard work out last night I managed to keep up with the girls. Well let’s be honest, I didn’t do too well at the “up downs” exercise but everything else I did okay at. Mendy did correct me on those.

Every week that I do all 4 workouts I am so proud of myself. I just hope soon my hard work will be noticeable in my photos.  I know it will be eventually.

So yea, I am still tagged in that photo of me on facebook as motivation and as a reminder of how I need to change.